| Its been over a year |
[Oct. 18th, 2006|03:35 am] |
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| | Ohne Dich by Rammstein | ] | and I must say I'm in a much different place than I was when I last posted. I edited my journal and deleted over 100 entries. Mostly fillers and unimportant shit. Knocked out some stuff I wanted to forget...so yeah this is the new shit. |
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| short post inbetween boxes |
[Aug. 17th, 2005|04:42 am] |
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I'm moving to San Marcos today. Excited as fuck. Just ready to get there. I haven't slept yet and don't plan to. Nothing it better than moving all your shit into a tiny room while delerious! So wish me luck kids, its gonna be a long road. |
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| My band name rocks |
[Jun. 13th, 2005|02:47 pm] |
John David Sisemore's Aliases
| Your movie star name: Popcorn Oran
| Your fashion designer name is John Wales
| Your socialite name is Wonkin Norman
| Your fly girl / guy name is J Sis
| Your detective name is Ferret Reagan
| Your barfly name is Crackers Grand Mariner
| Your soap opera name is David Aspen
| Your rock star name is Reeses Light
| Your star wars name is Johcha Sismal
| Your punk rock band name is The Indifferent Spork
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| I got a new job today bitches |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|01:24 am] |
Thats right
FUCK PIER ONE IMPORTS!
I'm fuckin DONE with that shit.
Target yo. $7.50 an hour. Cashier.
Finally. Damn. |
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| Its far to early, and I'm much to tired. |
[Feb. 20th, 2005|04:10 am] |
Just, can't explain it.
I thought about her today. It hurt. Alot.
I thought about something else in conjunction with that. It pissed me off. I know I let it get to me way to much. Nevertheless it really REALLY gets to me. Oh well. That too shall pass.
I've been on meds for my throat. Steroids. They're making me cranky. REALLY cranky. Its a miricle I haven't murdered someone. Thats no shit. Violence is +15 right now or some shit.
*laughs at nerdness*
Sleep doesn't come easy anymore. Its restless too. I've had a few memorable dreams lately. One of which was really really disturbing. Thinking about it creeps me out. Not fun. I haven't had a nightmare in years. It wasn't what I'd consider a nightmare. But its stuck with me, and my dreams typically don't do that. Ever.
Its 4 am..... my e-mail is empty my buddy list is loaded with away messages my phone is quiet and messageless there is a golf infomercial on TV .....its not closed captioned.....I guess the deaf don't play golf.
I changed the channel. It was getting on my nerves.
....an infomercial with Ron Jeremy? What the hell....
apparently Ron Jeremy has made a new penis enlargement pill called ExtenZe. Its all natural and if I call now I get a free bottle. Over 10 top male adult film stars are users and support this product. The number is 1 800 481 5586 and I should call now.
I can't hear what they're saying though. Its not closed captioned either. Guess the deaf don't need big penises.
.....shit......*shakes head*.....This
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| Mas |
[Jan. 13th, 2005|10:35 pm] |
I made a 25 on the ACT....
Go me...
Now its on to college
All of us have a chance at being great; it depends on the tenacity of the individual to achieve it.
- Ryan Moe |
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| Universal truth number 10,348 |
[Jan. 4th, 2005|10:06 pm] |
.....and the prophet Jeremy sayith.....
"Men are too simple to understand, and women are to complicated"
and they saw that it was true. |
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| A half hearted survey |
[Nov. 18th, 2004|11:38 pm] |
last cigarette: This morning. last kiss: Around 5ish last good cry: Earlier last library book checked out: The Practical Archeaologist last movie seen: well....shit....can't remember. last book read: Dean Koontz, Hideaway last cuss word uttered: fuckin last beverage drank: apple juice last food consumed: Sloppy joes last phone call: To my mom last tv show watched: ER last shoes worn: My K-mart boots last cd played: Brain Stomping Music vol. 2 last item bought: A slice of pizza last downloaded: Du Hast Rammstien last annoyance: Our whinny little girl poodle last disappointment: define disappointment? last soda drank: Dr.Pepper last thing handwritten: Uhhhhhhhhhhh, Spanish Notes? last word spoken: nadda last sleep: Last night/this morning. last im: Mallory last weird encounter: My life is a series of weird encounters, ask me to name a normal moment...that'd be a challenge last ice cream eaten: Cookies and Cream....blue bell bitch last amused: Today was void of amusement last time wanting to die: To many times last time in love: Currently thank you. last time hugged: earlier today last time scolded: the other day. last chair sat in: Does this on count? last lipstick used: No thanks. last shirt worn: My Hooters/God Father rip off shirt last time dancing: The other day...for no reason. last poster looked at: My Azumanga Daioh poster last show attended: Uh, I don't go to "shows" last webpage visited: KSWO channel 7-news....morbid fucks.
1 MINUTE AGO: I answered a question? 1 HOUR AGO: I was told 2 friends of mine died. 1 DAY AGO: I was sitting in this same chair. 1 WEEK AGO: I was prolly at work. 1 YEAR AGO: Look back and tell ME bitch.
current clothes: Jeans, Hooters shirt, Yorkie in my lap current mood: blank. current music: Jay Leno in the background. current taste: my spit? current hair: annoying, kinda frizzy current annoyance: I just told you. current smell: Yorkie? current thing I should be doing: Getting off the computer. current desktop picture: A drawing of Molly's current refreshment: Empty water bottle. current worry: Tysons family having to have thanksgiving and christmas without him. |
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| Today I lost a friend |
[Nov. 18th, 2004|11:24 pm] |
Tyson Bishop 1987-2004
Tyson was never someone I thought would leave so soon, I always pictured him going on and having some bad ass computer programming job, making lots of money. But, as of today, all those posiblilities are now imposiblilities.
We'll miss you Tyson. |
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| They say Democracy...I say failure |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|01:34 am] |
Today America lost
Today Democracy failed
Today America signed away the fates of thousands of our troops
Today America elected a leader who rules by Faith, not by reason.
Today the voices of millions went unheard.
Today Americans saw what happens when scare tactics work.
Today America picked illiteracy of intellect
Today America sided with the "moral" leader, who supports the ban on single parents and gay adults from teaching in public schools, because they lead "immoral lives" unfit for display in front of children.
Today America voted to shed the blood of more of their brothers, sisters, fathers, and sons.
Today America cheated its children.
Today America lost all respect as a world power.
Today America against the safe keep of our environment
Today America signed over their rights to a leader who would have it as it was in Orwell's 1984
Today America's youth was robbed of fair education
Today a mindless crusade was supported by millions
Today America furthered the national debt
Today America was scared into another 4 years of fear
Today America let itself down
Today America lost
Never before have I been so disappointed in my country, never before have I ever felt so helpless. After all that was said and done, the man I put all my hopes for bettering the country is sent away. The citizens of America were handed the country's fate on a silver platter, handed them the country's well being for the next four years, they're were shown the best man to pass it on too, and yet they toss it blindly to a fool. We are in for a long ride, and all because America wanted to take it. All that is to happen, all that is to go wrong, is all that America wanted.
I cast my vote, I proudly marked my ballot, I was making a difference.
Now I sit and watch as the man I've so avidly spoken against take his place at the head of our nation, I can't help but wonder.....
What difference did I really make?
I've been disappointed before. I have not agreed with many of the things that have happened in my country, I have been shocked and appalled by policies carried out by our Senators and Representatives, but never before....NEVER have I been so disappointed in my fellow American Citizens......
I want Kerry to run next election...and I will go and sign up for his campaign....I will not let such an atrocity occur in my homeland again....no no. I choose not to go to Canada, cause I think things can be made right, here at home. But it can't be done with a man like Bush in office.
Never had I been ashamed to call myself an American......
Yet I feel ashamed of my fellow americans.
Today America lost. |
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| Never before...never again. |
[Sep. 13th, 2004|09:09 am] |
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| | indescribable | ] | As I sit typing here, the small clock on my desk reads 8:44 AM. On any other day, I would have been well on my way to school. Not today. A robbery is such a nice thing to wake up too. When all seems ok and you get out the door on time with no worries, only to see a gaping hole in your car, where your stereo used to be. Your $250 stereo. Your $250 stereo that you got for your 18th birthday.
That stereo you wanted for so long, waited for, got, and was taken from you by some filthy low life mother fucker that thought it would look better in his car.
A-fucking-mazing.
I've seen my own species do a lot of sick and twisted shit...I've heard the stories of the horrors committed by my own kind. Hollow and selfish as it may seem, it isn't until now that I've had my upmost distaste for them. Acts of psychosis, murders, grotesque sexual acts, and rape, all those can almost be explained by a psychologist. Explanation being, the person is just fucked up, insane, sick in the head. Sure they might do it appearing to be sane, but no. Down inside there is some sick perversion needing to be released.
But when you steal something from somebody, when you steal out of a locked vehicle, you are blatantly putting yourself in a position over the person whos stuff it is, declaring your better, and their stuff should be yours.
Its not like it was easy for em...no. I had it locked. Windows up. There are scratches on the window where they used some sort of tool or hanger to unlatch the lock. They made quite the effort.
No, I can say that it is now I harbor the most distaste for my own kind....that I ever have....
Though I know there is no chance that the cunt who stole my stereo will read this, I want to post this message to them anyway.
"You filth, what inspired you to steal from me is a tad beyond my comprehension. But know this, should we ever cross ways, should I EVER find out who you are......you better be a man of god......cause god will be the only thing that might save you, and I stress....MIGHT save you....corporal punishment, justice of the courts, will have no effect on you. I know this. So should I find you before they do. Don't you worry about going to jail. You just better start prayin. Cause I will make sure, that the last hours of your life are spent in unbearable pain. The torture chambers of the Spanish Inquisition won't be able to hold a torch to what I'm going to do to you. I will re-instate the laws of old....thieves didn't keep their hands in ancient times. Neither will you. You won't have the pleasure of a clean cut. No, you don't deserve it. No fall of the ax for you. I'll hammer it off. Repetitious pounding, until bone is powdered, and flesh torn. I'll keep that hand.I'll hang it from my rear view mirror, and I'll tattoo on it.....This is what happens, to people that steal from me.....Don't laugh just yet, a missing hand will not be the worst of your problems. But I'll leave those to your imagination. Seems a bit much over a car stereo yes? No. There was more to that stereo than music. There was a pride in it. Pride of my ONLY birthday present from my parents. $250 is a lot to spend on one present....and they spent that on me. You didn't just take from me you fuck...you took from my parents....you took from every friend of mine who has to ride in that car without the pleasure of music.....and nobody.........NOBODY......steals from my family, or my friends.....or me....much less all three at the same time....Pray to whomever you pray to that we don't meet. Cause if we do, your soul, your entire well being, its mine. And I won't give it back." |
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| Ted did it again |
[Sep. 7th, 2004|12:19 am] |
Ted wisdom
*Title pending: When dreaming of an uncertain future causes us only to confront the past... We can look at each moment together, Reminding ourselves that its the last. For the present is the only time that matters, It is both our future and the past We can remind ourselves to live for the present Because this moment is our last.
Copyright 2004 Ted B. |
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| Tryin to fit in with the crowd |
[Aug. 28th, 2004|01:35 am] |
Relationships: 01. Fallen for your best friend? Yeah...hard too. 02. Made out with JUST a friend? Uhhhhh yeah....actually. 03. Been rejected? *sigh* Yeah. 04. Been in love? To many times 05. Been in lust? Every god damn day of the week. 06. Used someone? I don't think so. 07. Been used? God damnit....yeah....sick fucking part of it is I still am....and I KNOW I am....yet....I still go along with it. 08. Cheated on someone? Yes? No? Define Cheat.... 09. Been cheated on? Yeah 10. Been kissed? *nod* 11. Done something you regret? Who hasn't you stupid fuck.
Who was the last person... 12. You touched? Myself...harharhar 13. You talked to? Dad 14. You hugged? My stepmom 15. You instant messaged? Jordan...even though she's asleep...cause...I'm stupid. 16. Kissed? Jamie? Does the cheek count? 17. You had sex with? Thats none of your damn business fuck you very much. 18. You yelled at? My computer 19. You laughed with? Uh....my parents. 20. You had a crush on? *blush* 21. Broke your heart? To many people...it happens everyday.
Do you: 22. Color your hair? Au Natural beeotch 23. Have tattoos? Oh so soon 24. Piercings? Nah 25. Floss daily? Not since I got braces 26. Own a webcam? Yeppers 27. Ever get off the damn computer? FUCK YOU....no.
General Questions 40. Considered a life of crime? Yeh....but....I'm lazy 41. Considered being a hooker? Yes...but I figured I'd have less money than I do now. 42. Considered being a pimp? Ugh...I couldn't stand the clothes...and the...herpes. 44. Split personalities? Nah 45. Schizophrenic? Yeah...it blows... 46. Obsessive? Sometimes 47. Obsessive compulsive? To a degree yeah. 48. Panic? More or less 49. Anxiety? Gods yes 50. Depressed? Why not. 51. Suicidal? Nah 52. Obsessed with Hate? Define hate. 53. Dream of mutilated bodies? Uh...well...kinda 54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? You figured me out...I'm always the cause. 55. If you could be anywhere, where would you be? With someone....she knows who she is. 56. What would you be doing? Uh....this? 58. What are you listening to? My dad singing on our new kareeokee machine downstairs 59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? Its....uh......well....everything. 60. Chicken or fish? Beef 61. Do you have a favorite animal, no matter how lame it may be? Yeah...you.
Currently: 62. Current Clothes: Not a damn thing....cept mah boxerbriefs 63. Current Mood: A little worn out. 64. Current Taste: Goldfish...hell yeah....baked not fried you fuck. 65. Current Hair: Ungelled! 66. Current Annoyance: Being lied to about something I care about. 67. Current Smell: Dirty water I just cleaned out of my bonsai tree's plate 68. Current thing I ought to be doing: Sleeping cause...ya know...work and all. 69. Current Desktop Picture: My future tatoo 70. Current Favorite Group: Uhhhh....All of em. 71. Current Book: Walter Cronkite "A reporters life" 72. Current DVD In Player: Cold 73. Current Refreshment: Water 74. Current Worry: Money 75. Current Favorite Celebrity: Me
Favorites: 76. Food: The whole menu! 77. Drink: Diet Coke beeotch 78. Color: All....mostly blue or black 79. Shoes: Boots 80. Candy: Fuckin kit kats man 81. Animal: All of em 82. Movie: Anything by Q.T. HERO COMES OUT THIS WEEKEND! 83. Dance: DDR! WOOT! 84. Vegetable: Uh....beef?
Future: 85. What do you want to be when you get older?: Be a professor. 86. Married?: Yeah 87. Kids?: Of course...who else will contiue my evil riegn? 88. Living Where?: In paradise?
This or That: 89. Gay or straight: Straight 90. Boxers or Briefs: Boxerbreiefs!
91. Reading or Writing: Both 92. Basketball or Baseball: Fuck you....pool 93. Walking or Running: Crawling 94. Left or Right: Left! Up.....yours 95. TV Shows or Movies: Movies fo sho! 96. Britney or Christina: Both....in my bed...har har...ew no...I don't want Aids. 97. Rap or Rock: Rock bitch 98. Day or Night: Night |
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| Mmmm update |
[Aug. 14th, 2004|12:44 am] |
Tasty
Pish
Hardly
So I got braces today...top...they don't look to bad really....feel wierd as fuck though. I don't wanna work anymore....reeeeeeally don't. Our pool is almost done....and school starts on Monday. Fantasic huh? My life is so exciting...I bet your excited you get to read about it aren't ya....
Go ahead....don't fight it....roll those eyes.
I'm having some tests done....none of you know why and its gonna stay that way for now....well...James does....kinda....so if your reading this James....I'm having tests done...I should know by next week....or middle of next week....
*sigh*
Meeting some one you really like is nice....not being able to see or talk to them offten sucks....then hoping to get to spend some time with them is nice....not being able to sucks....being told that the reason you couldn't see them wasn't because of you but an outside factor is nice.....finding out that they lied to you about it sucks....and knowing that you have just been rejected sucks.....but knowing that the rejection was a long time ago....
and the hope you had was a false hope
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| I'm gonna fill out this long ass survey...maybe. |
[Aug. 13th, 2004|01:00 am] |
what's your first name?: J.D middle name?: D. last name?: S. (for you sick fuck stalkers out there) nicknames?: J.D. Erus Wyrm age?: 18 gender?: Male birthday?: June 3 1986 your sign?: Gemini where do you live?: A house do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Nope if so what's her/his name?: Nobody have you ever been in love?: To many times who are/were your crushes?: I'm not gonna say......oh alright.....NO do you have any piercings, or want any piercings?: Nope if so what do you have/want pierced?: Nothin do you have a tattoo or want one?: Oh yes....as soon as I get the dough...I'm goin nuts. if so what kind and where?: Illuminati Ambiagram on my Back and arm, tattoo of the white goat James drew on my neck where do you shop at the most?: HEB what color is your hair?: Brown what color are your eyes?: Hazel how tall are you?: 5' 8" do you smoke cigg's?: *sigh* Yeah... do your friends smoke?: Nope who are your closest friends?: James/Molly/Mal/Brendan/Jeremy/Steve/all these people I never see. who are your friends?: Here? I know not what you speak of. do you like bath & body works?: Who doesn't? kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use?: Pantene Pro-V yo is your hair short or long?: Long...but not 80's rock long...yet. do you like to shop?: Sure....I'm a woman I know what sports do you play?: Sports? what turns you on?: Wouldn't you like to know what turns you off?: Bitchin, quiet people. what place do you go for fun?: Forest, Barnes and Nobles what do you do for fun?: Read, Write, socialize how many phone lines do you have in your house?: 1 how many tv's do you have in your house?: 4 what's your favorite food(s)?: Steak and potatoes who are the most attractive people you know?: Mal/Jamie/James ^.~ are you a virgin?: No do you wish to be like your parents?: My dad...in a way....yeah what are you listening to right now?: Something in the way by Nirvana what time is it?: 12:31 am how many hours per day do you spend talking on the phone?: Very very few do you have your own phone line?: Used to....damn it....wait do cell phones count? have you ever kissed someone of the opposite sex?: Yeppers what are your favorite shoes?: My old work boots....fuuuuuck yeah..... what kind of clothes do you sleep in?: Mah boxer briefs what's your favorite soda?: Diet Coke....yeah I know I 'm a freak. what things do you say a lot?: Shit, god damnit, because, In order to who is the coolest person in the world?: Cool people fail to exist in my world....JK.....James. do you think you're weird or funny?: I'm a god damn freak, but a funny one. what would you prefer thong or bikini?: Thong foo who was the last person you called?: Uhhhhh....I think dad where do you wanna get married?: Ireland or Germany what is your favorite girl name?: Mallory *wink* what is your favorite guy name?: Mick or John, or James, or Dameon what's your favorite childhood memory?: My childhood sucked. what is your favorite fast food restaurant?: Wendy's beeotch who do you really dislike?: Michael David Morley...I will kill that bastard one day....I swear it. do you have any brothers and sisters?: 3 Brothers (Donovan, Jeremy, James) 2 Sisters (Misty, Tonya) do you have a pool?: As of tonight yes....got done today....wooo! what are you addicted to?: People do you like jewelry?: Yeah do you like to dance?: When I'm in my best of moods. do you like playing pranks on people?: Sometimes what's your least favorite subject in school?: U.S. History...yes....moreso than math....cause it was just fuckin boring. what's your favorite subject in school?: English/World Hist. what college do you wanna go to?: U of NM or OU what school do you go to now?: High Skoool do you have a playstation or nintendo 64?: Both do you sleep a lot?: Nah....certified insomniac what are your favorite radio stations?: I'm a CD kind of guy. are you a morning person?: Nope. what's your favorite tv station?: TV sucks do you shave?: Yes how often do you shower?: Every day do you get along with your parents?: Yep! what room do you spend the most time in?: My room how many rooms does your house have? 10 what do you wanna be when you're out of school?: Teacher/Professor do you curse a lot?: Huh....Fuck no you fuckin cunt. are you ticklish?: No I'm lame what are you wearing right now?: NOTHING!!! HAHAHAHAHAH now thats an image NOBODY wanted. do you go to church?: only when my parents force me do you believe in god?: Um...get back to me on that. do you believe in love at first sight?: Yeah.... what color tooth brush do you use?: white how many times a day do you brush your teeth?: twice maybe three. do you have a job?: *sigh* I hate it. what's your favorite fruit?: Apples! what's your favorite veggies?: Corn or Celery what's your favorite candy?: Uhhhhhh.....skittles what was the best day of your life so far?: Yet to come what are you gonna do today?: Not a damn thing. do you wear body spray?: No are you wearing nail polish now?: No do you wear a watch?: Yes did/do you have braces?: As of 9am tomorrow. are you tired?: No do you have freckles?: No what are you thinking right now?: "I need to poo" who makes you laugh?: Jew Jokes...I dunno...they're just so damn funny who's your favorite teacher?: No Idea what is the best concert you have ever been to?:Staind/Cold in bricktown what is your favorite dream?: I have so many.
Sigh...this is my life....*shakes head* |
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| Pains of life leave me now, seep and fall on hallowed ground. |
[Aug. 2nd, 2004|10:29 pm] |
Fuckin shit....if its not one thing...its another
I already spent 350 getting my god damn car thing fixed....2 weeks later its fuckin dead....and THIS time it won't even fucking start! I thought it was just the battery....got a new one....40 bucks.....put it in....have some trouble but get it started none the less.....get it home....turn it off.....go to start it again...five seconds after I turned it off mind you......dead......no lights....no beeping...dead as a fucking jew in Nazi germany.....it is fucking BULLSHIT!
That fucking car is going to give me an ulcer....
Anyway....I wanna get back on "The Write Brain" thing....its been on hold for a while.....a long while....too long really...but what can I say I'm a lazy ass.
fuckin shit....
IF MY GOD DAMN HEAD DOESN"T STOP HURTING RIGHT THIS FUCKING INSTANT I"M GOING TO SAW IT OFF WITH A BROKEN SHARD OF THIS COMPUTER MONITOR!!!!
GOD DAMNIT! |
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| A bit of a monolog...or something.... |
[Jul. 27th, 2004|11:09 pm] |
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| | Like the Angel by Rise Against | ] | (from J.V.'s JTHM)
I'LL FORGET MY STOMACH IF I AM HUNGRY! SHUT OFF MY WANT IF I'M LONELY! TEAR OFF MY GENITALS IF I'M AROUSED!! EXCESS!!! SO MUCH EXCESS!!! IT'S SO MUCH SUPERFLUOS NONSENSE. AND I WANT TO DO NOTHING WITH IT!!! CLEAR THE ROOM OF ALL THIS ANCESTRAL FURNITURE AND REBUILD IT THE WAY I WANT TO . FLUSH THE TOILET BOYS IT STINKS IN HERE GET IT?!?! MY MIND STINKS! CLUTTERED UP WITH ALL IT'S DAMAGED FILES AND CORRUPT MACHINERY! PROGRAMED AND PROGRAMED AND PROGRAMED AND PROGRAMED!!! ITS TO MUCH!! UNLIKE SAMSA HERE. DOING SIMPLY WHAT IT TAKES AND NOTHING MORE! JUST ADD TO THAT A PURE HUMAN INTELLECT AND THINK OF HOW MUCH WORK HE COULD DO!!! NO DISTRACTIONS!!!
*skip a few frames*
Dream or not I just got through being a slave. The last thing I need is to quarrel with my own organics. It should go willingly. I should own it! I HAVE MY FREEDOM!
NO SUCH THING NO SUCH THING!
I'M A SLAVE TO NOTHING, YOU BURGER EATING KIND OF MEATY GUY!!! NOTHING!!!
(cue the most intelligent thing anybody has ever said...Jhonen is God)
There is no choice...you're always a slave to something |
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